Thursday, August 6, 2009

Setting the Record Straight.

I'd like to take a moment to set the record straight regarding some prior posts. Rather than focus my feelings over the distribution of inaccurate information at a particular individual, I chose to use general terms, (i.e. some people instead of this person).

I could have chosen, and still can choose to post this individuals name, and the forum on which she posts but I chose not to. I chose to make it more of a generalized statement so that perhaps other individuals who behave this way might take notice as well.

Hmm. So now I'm labeled as being mad at the world with specific references to this blog and the comments made here. You still don't get it do you? Out of some wharped sense of respect I still will not share your name in a public format such as this but you know who you are.

With respect to my feelings, those of anger in particular, I don't know of anyone who wouldn't be or hasn't been angry over receiving a misdiagnosis or having mistakes made regarding their care/treatment. This is especially true when one misdiagnosis would have cost me my fertility and the life of my daughter along with it!

Do I get upset and at times angry over inaccurate information being given to people about HPV - most certainly. I do not take this lightly because such inaccurate information can, depending upon the content, cost a woman her life!

Anger, though typically thought of as a negative emotion, doesn't have to be negative. Anger can be a great motivator to accomplishing many things. It certainly was being angry that 22 years after my initial diagnosis with HPV that women (and doctors) were still as cluelss now (for the most part) as they were back then that motivated me to write my book which I hope will help untold scores of women and doctors. So anger isn't always a bad thing, but more about what you do with it.

I can assure you that I am not raging at the world. I'm too focused on fighting for my life at the moment. You say that you feel very bad about what I'm going through only to play therapist, analyze my emotional state of mind and then editorialize about it in a public forum! What a disgrace. Obviously you don't feel that badly and aren't the least bit concerned about the negative portrayal you have created about me for others who read that site.

It's a shame, that you had to passive/aggressively utilize my misfortune and difficulties encountered dealing with invasive cancer to vent your negative perceptions and your angry feelings towards me. Very sad indeed.